June 29, San Mateo, CA: We just spent almost a month together. And while I know that we always knew that it had its end...that we wouldn't be doing it forever...it was still something we were approaching with lots of curiosity. Maybe even a little apprehension. Today, I expected to feel a sense of relief. Space to myself. No longer feeling like an L-shaped couch would be ideal. Or that a California king wasn't made for two. Basically, I expected to feel like I have felt in the past. But I miss her. And its strange not to have her here. I'm relieved to feel that way. I would like to think that it means that I have felt more comfortable being myself, but I havent really given it all that much thought yet.