April 15, Menlo Park, CA: Thank god I did my taxes early. I have had all the workload I can handle this week. I still do not feel stressed about it yet. Its not that I want to, but having so much to do and not nearly enough time usually gets me much more anxious. I keep thinking things will ramp up to that point, but so far so good. That said, I did bring work home for the first time today. And more to come tomorrow.
Speaking of anxiety, my attitude about money also seems to have shifted a bit. Growing up, I think money was the single most stressful thing in our house. That definitely rubbed off on me. Going without a steady income for nearly a year has been a blessing in disguise in that regard. There was nothing to stress over. Sometimes I hear people joke about how those with less are much more carefree about going without. On some level, I think its been true for me. So much so that I wonder about how much I really want. Sometimes. But I still hold on to the goal of someday having work be an option.