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Starting September 27, 2008: one photo per day accompanied by prevailing thoughts, moods, or feelings on that day.

August 20, Palo Alto, CA: Today I had a very fulfilling conversation about the past year. At work, of all places. I forced myself to talk pretty plainly about the things I'd done. It gets easier every time...but its not easy yet. Dinner with a friend reminded me of something I had written years ago about how important integrity was to me. My best friend in the world has more integrity than anyone I've ever met. He can almost always be the person that he says he wants to be. I admire that. And when I wrote about how important that characteristic was to me, I focused on the people I'd encountered who hadn't been like my best friend. But, in retrospect, I admired him so much because I aspired to be that way, too. And I knew deep down that I wasn't. I could have written about how being his friend had shown me how honorably he conducted himself and how inspirational that was. But finger pointing was much easier at the time.

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August 20, Palo Alto, CA: Today I had a very fulfilling conversation about the past year. At work, of all places. I forced myself to talk pretty plainly about the things I'd done. It gets easier every time...but its not easy yet. Dinner with a friend reminded me of something I had written years ago about how important integrity was to me. My best friend in the world has more integrity than anyone I've ever met. He can almost always be the person that he says he wants to be. I admire that. And when I wrote about how important that characteristic was to me, I focused on the people I'd encountered who hadn't been like my best friend. But, in retrospect, I admired him so much because I aspired to be that way, too. And I knew deep down that I wasn't. I could have written about how being his friend had shown me how honorably he conducted himself and how inspirational that was. But finger pointing was much easier at the time.

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