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June 18, San Mateo, CA: I'm glad this week is coming to an end. A lot of the struggles were created by me. Just about all of them. On top of that, in trying to make things right I forgot to acknowledge the emotional impacts of what I had done. I was really mentally focused on the tactical things I needed to do without communicating that I understood how much what I did hurt. A really good lesson for me. It definitely feels like I have been trying to change a bunch of things at the same time. And that felt overwhelming this week. I also had some negative reactions or feelings about how things went. In the past, when I am at fault, I have completly stifled my feelings and thrown my efforts into making sure the other person felt better. I can be really good in crisis for that reason. But almost always, I havent shared any negative feelings I had along the way. Part of me felt like it just was so much less important at the time or might be unwelcome. But feelings are feelings, not meant to be forced or controlled. And when I haven't shared, it just built a bunch of hidden sentiment and, in some cases, resentment. Not to mention the fact that it's difficult to hide strong feeling from someone who knows you. So I shared this week when I didn't feel right. I can't say it went great, bit I'm positive that we both feel better than I would if I had kept my mouth shut. Let's move on!! 100 days (or more) to go!!!