December 12, San Francisco, CA:
Lots of things on my mind. I had been thinking about the combo of a career high tech and my photography as a zero sum proposition. But I can do them both. I need to do them both. One feeds me...and the other literally feeds me. But a quote keeps ringing in my head:
"We all chase money, 'cause we're afraid to chase dreams." -Murs
I think what I want to carry forward, no matter what combination of things I pursue, is a sense that deferred gratification is not something I want to be a guiding principal of my life. It's so easy to make decisions based on the good things that might possibly happen. Especially when choosing a job. All the thoughts of what something "could be in a couple years" could never justify day-by-day misery...or even dissatisfaction. To use a well-worn phrase, life is way too short. I guess that is what drove me to leave my last role. I need to do more thinking about how I can and should apply this way of thinking to my personal life.