September 21, San Mateo, CA: Trying to be lots of things at the same time...compassionate, warm, serious, loving. Trying to not be righteous, knowing that I've done and been forgiven for what I'd consider more serious transgressions. Trying to not be too conciliatory. Trying to own my part in how this happened. I'm surprised at how easy its been to be caring (or what I would consider caring), but it does make me want to make sure that I'm not doing things that I'm not ready to back up. Its a lot to try to do at once. But I don't feel hurried.