Dana > December 12, San Francisco, CA:  

Santa???

Lots of things on my mind.  I had been thinking about the combo of a career high tech and my photography as a zero sum proposition.  But I can do them both.  I need to do them both.  One feeds me...and the other literally feeds me.  But a quote keeps ringing in my head:

"We all chase money, 'cause we're afraid to chase dreams."  -Murs

I think what I want to carry forward, no matter what combination of things I pursue, is a sense that deferred gratification is not something I want to be a guiding principal of my life.  It's so easy to make decisions based on the good things that might possibly happen.  Especially when choosing a job.  All the thoughts of what something "could be in a couple years" could never justify day-by-day misery...or even dissatisfaction.  To use a well-worn phrase, life is way too short.  I guess that is what drove me to leave my last role.  I need to do more thinking about how I can and should apply this way of thinking to my personal life.
Dana > December 11, San Francisco, CA: I can remember times when I have been shown a mirror.  Other people in my life would demonstrate behavior that we had in common, but it was behavior that I didn't like in myself.  Too often I would take my frustration out on the other person and wish to be far from them instead of acknowledging the shortcoming in myself.  Pretty delusional and very selfish.  But at the time it allowed me to not confront myself.  I could have lost lots of friends forever.  Thankfully, many of those whom I'd judged so harshly have been gracious enough to not return the favor.  They may have no idea...it might be time to share.
Dana > December 10, San Mateo, CA: Spent the day chained to my computer, pretending to be a professional photographer in as many ways as I could tolerate.  Bleary-eyed and more than ready for bed.
Dana > November 30, Vienna, Austria: Have enjoyed Vienna and think I will someday return.  For now, I am ready to go home.  I miss my friends, and I love the feeling of wanting to get back to the life that is mine.  The last few months have been unpredictably and ridiculously difficult for me.  I definitely want my life back.

I've also been reading more than usual (not saying very much), but my friends have recommended some great books.  It reminds me of how well they know me, despite all my years of believing I could successfully not "be known."
Dana > November 29, Burgtheater, Vienna, Austria:  I wouldn't say that I have been particularly brave in the attempt.  But a friend reminded me of the significance of creating these memories.  I know it means a lot to us both.  Even though we may labor to say so.
Dana > Opera House
Dana > Vienna photo
Dana > Vienna photo
Dana > Dad takes a load off at the Rathaus
December 12, San Francisco, CA:

Santa???

Lots of things on my mind. I had been thinking about the combo of a career high tech and my photography as a zero sum proposition. But I can do them both. I need to do them both. One feeds me...and the other literally feeds me. But a quote keeps ringing in my head:

"We all chase money, 'cause we're afraid to chase dreams." -Murs

I think what I want to carry forward, no matter what combination of things I pursue, is a sense that deferred gratification is not something I want to be a guiding principal of my life. It's so easy to make decisions based on the good things that might possibly happen. Especially when choosing a job. All the thoughts of what something "could be in a couple years" could never justify day-by-day misery...or even dissatisfaction. To use a well-worn phrase, life is way too short. I guess that is what drove me to leave my last role. I need to do more thinking about how I can and should apply this way of thinking to my personal life.
Dana > December 12, San Francisco, CA:  

Santa???

Lots of things on my mind.  I had been thinking about the combo of a career high tech and my photography as a zero sum proposition.  But I can do them both.  I need to do them both.  One feeds me...and the other literally feeds me.  But a quote keeps ringing in my head:

"We all chase money, 'cause we're afraid to chase dreams."  -Murs

I think what I want to carry forward, no matter what combination of things I pursue, is a sense that deferred gratification is not something I want to be a guiding principal of my life.  It's so easy to make decisions based on the good things that might possibly happen.  Especially when choosing a job.  All the thoughts of what something "could be in a couple years" could never justify day-by-day misery...or even dissatisfaction.  To use a well-worn phrase, life is way too short.  I guess that is what drove me to leave my last role.  I need to do more thinking about how I can and should apply this way of thinking to my personal life.
December 12, San Francisco, CA:

Santa???

Lots of things on my mind. I had been thinking about the combo of a career high tech and my photography as a zero sum proposition. But I can do them both. I need to do them both. One feeds me...and the other literally feeds me. But a quote keeps ringing in my head:

"We all chase money, 'cause we're afraid to chase dreams." -Murs

I think what I want to carry forward, no matter what combination of things I pursue, is a sense that deferred gratification is not something I want to be a guiding principal of my life. It's so easy to make decisions based on the good things that might possibly happen. Especially when choosing a job. All the thoughts of what something "could be in a couple years" could never justify day-by-day misery...or even dissatisfaction. To use a well-worn phrase, life is way too short. I guess that is what drove me to leave my last role. I need to do more thinking about how I can and should apply this way of thinking to my personal life.
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