May 27, Menlo Park, CA: Today, at least for part of the afternoon, I was thinking about all the time I had behaved like a control freak in relationships. That accounts for most of the time I have spent in them. And I was trying to remember back to any times when I might, in retrospect or even back then, have felt justified in being so rigid and uncompromising. I have never dated anyone who made me feel insecure about being out of control. It's been an issue that's entirely intrinsic, as far as I can tell. In fact, I have always had relationships with wonderful people who really cared about me. The present is no exception to that, but today had me thinking about the things that I still do that exhibit the need to remain in control...there still are some lingering tendencies.
At the end of today, it was really comforting to be reminded that everyone has issues that they are working on, and they may be identical to the ones you're struggling with. AND you might never suspect it.