April 26, NY, NY: When its happening, I can feel myself becoming distant. Drifting. Pulling back. I end up trying to process things on my own that shouldn't be. I felt it this weekend, but was happy to try to work past it. There are still tiny spikes of the urge to retreat. How do people just let it all go? I have a hard time understanding how this isn't a challenge for everyone, but I guess thats like saying it makes no sense to me that everyone doesn't have my issues. And I know that isn't true.