September 12, St. Louis, MO: Guilty. Because of poor planning on my part, I had to cancel on a friend of mine. A good friend of mine. Someone who had gone out of their way to create an opportunity for me to expand my photography base by shooting an event. I was able to find someone to cover for me, which is definitely a good thing. But when I was thinking about it last week, I think I have treated the situation more cavalierly than I might have otherwise. And one of the basic reasons I think I did it was because of my tendency to sometimes be less careful with the people who are closest to me. I guess the way that is most clearly illustrated is iwth my family. I am so impatient (relatively) with them, while I'm relatively forgiving and considerate of my friends. And sometimes, I feel like this close friend of mine is actually family....which, in my case, can have both positive and negative implications. When I was halfway done with this exercise I thought about how I might commemorate or mark the occasion. I thought about talking about how I thought I might try to work on issues with family in the second half of my year. But I didnt do it. I didn't feel ready. I still don't. I could probably spend a bunch more years saying that to myself. Family is just the most difficult arena for me to try to be different.