March 11, San Mateo, CA: I used to hate going out. It felt like such a chore, especially on weekdays. I don't know exactly why, but I think a lot of it had to do with wanting to insulate myself and disconnect from people. But now I feel a desire to be much more connected. Not nearly as intent on creating separation between myself and my friends. I still haven't applied it to every part of my life or to everyone I love, but what a difference a few months make. I am getting together with friends several times a week and I love it.
Still searching for that work/life balance. Today my manager asked me how I was liking the job so far. It was my 4 week anniversary. I told her that the job was phenomenal, but that working SUCKED. She laughed, but who knows whether she actually found it funny. She is a really great manger, based on what I've seen so far. Hopefully my tongue won't be so loose that it gets me into trouble, but I do like the feeling that I can be open with her about any challenges of the job...whether they're related to what happens when I'm there or what it takes to go to bed at a reasonable hour (I still don't know).